Here again, I'm faced with the fight of faith over fear. Tonight we had to rush one of our children to the E.R. for a severe food allergy reaction. I have had to apply my faith over two of our other children & allergies. Allergies that have affected their breathing. Allergies that have affected so many decisions we have had to make. Can we go out to eat there? Do his other caregivers know how to treat a reaction? Will they recognize a reaction quick enough? Will they remember what he can't eat? Does he feel left out because he doesn't get a piece of the birthday cake? Is that cough just a normal cough or is it more? But through that I've learned & seen God's faithfulness. He has kept them when I missed it. He has given me promises of peace for them.
Tonight, again I am faced with this. Maybe it's the knowledge from being a nurse that makes the fear so much easier? If i didn't know how serious it was, i would be nonchalant about this.... not Knowing the potential process of an allergy reaction. But, she is okay, thank you Jesus! Sleeping now while I am awake. Awake wishing she didn't have this. Awake thinking of all the things I must change in her environment to keep her away from that food. And all the people that now must be as vigilant as me in that. Every label I will read before she can have a bite. Every question about every food I will have to ask. Every snack that she can't have at snack time. But she is breathing normal now : )
Fear tries to grip me from what happened to what happens now. But then I remember Jesus. I remember he has promised that great is the peace (wholeness) of my children. That he satisfies them with long life & shows them His salvation. That no weapon formed against them shall prosper. He has given them all things richly to enjoy. He has plans of peace & not of evil to give my children a hope & a future. I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. I can walk by faith & not by sight. His grace is sufficient.
I remember one of our sons when dealing with his allergy told a friend that God had made him like that, with those allergies. Oh how that broke my heart. My prayer became that he would know God, not as the one who gave him this condition, but that he would know God as his Healer.
My children's faith will be strong. They shall see the salvation of the Lord. They will be considerate of each other & protect each other from potential harmful things. They will pray for one another's healing. Even tonight when we returned from the hospital, the kids gathered around & all loved on their sibling. How precious. How Great is our God that he will make all things work together for the good of my children & our family as we love him & are called according to His purpose.
So, tonight I will think on these things. Not on the what if's but in God's Word, his promises, his goodness. I will rest in this. He is faithful to his Word & the fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. Great shall be the wholeness of our children!
